Wednesday, June 23, 2010
older and wiser
Here are some of my thoughts about life in my final hours as a 30-something-ish gal.
Kids: they grow up way too fast, and I think I've finally figured out how to slow down, spend the extra time, and do things that matter. Which brings me to my next one...
Time: there are only so many days and hours I have been given here on this earth. The realization of this has made me be very selfish with my time. There are so many things that demand my precious time, and I have had to let some things go for the benefit of my sanity. My first place I choose to be is home... second is anywhere with Hayden or my kids.
My body: sometimes fighting gravity isn't worth it. I've come to love running, and am very grateful my knees, feet and other body parts still function well enough to let that continue to happen. I know I won't ever have my 20-something body back... accepting that is another thing. Wrinkles are not my friend.
The daily grind: I've tried to find something each day to be grateful for by the end of the day.
I hate cleaning bathrooms.
I love teaching school.
My life: I've had my share of mountains to climb... many of them on my own . Those have made me the person I am today. Going through them again would literally put me in my grave, however, I wouldn't trade them for anything because of how I've grown and what I've learned. Being ok with myself makes everything else much easier.
Friends: one word: invaluable!! They have been my soft place to fall, my listening ear, and my support when my life was at it's worst. Misty, Becky, Karin, Kellie, Clay, Hayden... I'm talking to you. Thanks. Love you.
My husband: seriously the best thing that has ever happened to me. Period. After climbing the above noted mountains, having a good man by my side is something I am very grateful for. He is my best friend, my biggest cheerleader, a great amazing dad, and a very hard worker. We get along beautifully, and I believe my trials helped bring me to him.
The next 40 years: not too sure how I feel about more sagging, wrinkles, aches and pains, and the likes, but hopefully if I have a good attitude, find something to love everyday, and find joy in the small things, then every day, every month, every year should be something I look forward to.